seems like my parents is the trigger this time to my happened-many-times-in-the-past depression mode… let’s see how far this depression will go for…. last time it happened i almost want to end my life… maybe… just maybe i’ll get to be put out of my misery.. .
i guess it all happen when i can’t seem to see hope or realization of my dreams… or maybe it got something to do with the debut of … i don’t know… it seems like i havent done anything remotely successful with my life… i’ve been living under a shadow. if i have to be like that for the rest of my life i’ll never be the 1%… i ‘ll never be able to have my dream home, car or even the clothes or the bags that i want. i hte living… i hate it…
seeing people around me making more money than me, better looking than me… i hate loosing it… but… what can i do?
i know im an artist when i want to make art to express my anxiety and the depress emotion…. oh the irony… why is this song keeps on playing? what is god trying to tell me? im confused… im still confused… god please show me a sign that there’s hope for the realization of my dreams…. all im asking for is for me to be happy… to seek happiness… i dont even know what happiness is like… maybe… just maybe suicide is kinda romantic… its romantic is a sense that knowing people would cry over the lost of me… but who would cry over the lost of me? im just insignificant… i dont seem to play a big role in any of my friend’s life… im just me… im just small tiny asian dude…
usually when im sad ill go shopping.. but seeing the future i probably shouldnt shop… seems like every time im upset or depress it got something to do with money, future, and happiness… dont leave me without love? i guess its a little too late… too little too late… haha… wow im bringing popular culture into this…
god just please show me hope… show me the possibilities for turning my dream into reality… please god… im begging you… let me see the light…
Poor Jae he was preparing the food for the Yun with so much love.
What I found interesting was that instead of taking it from Jae’s hand, Yunho leaned forward to take a bite directly XD
And then leader-sshi is grumpy he didn’t get his food :P
is not it? XD They are already accustomed to food in the mouth of each other at home :D
They are so romantic *-* and obvious :D
YUNJAE FRUSTRATION #968798:
WHEN A YUNJAE MOMENT IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN BUT SOME RANDOM PERSON COCKBLOCKS.
Yunho is not pleased.
(via jaerotic)
I will reblog this every time I see it.
no fucking excuses for this shit
America, this is unacceptable. Get your act together, get with the times, and LEGALIZE this shit.
Forever reblog. This needs to be changed.
I will never not reblog this.
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This, this, this. Forever this.
^^^
Break anyone’s face who disagrees.
My heart is sad.
If you can’t see that this is discrimination, you must be blind.
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